Welcome to my prison ministry chronicle volume 1

  First journal entry written May 20th, 2021:

I don't know what I'm doing but I have peace. This piece I carry today inside me surpasses anything that I have ever felt. What I mean by felt, is that all my life I was left to make decisions based on what I felt. I did drugs because I felt some sort of way. I made friends based on how I felt about them. I made money because it made me feel good counting it. I did things based on how they felt. But after 43 years of living life like that, my feelings grew numb, and I started to realize that my feelings weren't really doing anything for me. So, I started to pray and speak to God more and more. I started to read the Bible more and I began to hear his voice inside of me through it. I have started to see him answer more and more prayers. So, for the past three years I surrendered my pride and my ego to God. I didn't want to chase my feelings anymore. I wanted something else. I wanted to learn to live for something else. When I asked Jesus into my heart in life, I began to learn things that nobody, but God could teach me. Today I sit in jail facing prison time, five years maybe, with a big cheesy smile on my face. I feel great, that's how I feel. I feel great and I have peace and I have heard God tell me over and over again, nothing outside of him matters. Because he is in charge, and he is bigger than anything that exists. Because he made it all, including time. Time belongs to him, and he controls everything in it and in the world and outside of it. So, God is in control, and he never sleeps. So, if he is in charge of everything including the devil then what do I have to be concerned about. If he is for me who can be against me. He promised me that no weapon formed against me shall prosper and he also promised that he will set an awesome table in the presence of my enemies. The devil tries to mess with me by telling me and trying to remind me of everything I lost but God assures me of everything I have gained in eternity by being loyal and obedient, he reminds me that this life is nothing but a puff of vapor in time, so my 46 years is maybe half a puff of vapor in time.